Mine is off to a slow start for some reason. Tons of unfinished projects that I want to finish and tons of new ones that I want to start. I'm also wanting to write a lot and post blogs and clean house and de-clutter and...
But something is holding me back, and I'm sure it's the bad habits I've acquired since hubby retired, such as sleeping late in the mornings, Facebook, watching too much TV with him, eating when he wants to eat, doing what he wants, no physical exercise, etc.
We also each have an elderly parent that lives alone and depends on us. I'm not making excuses. As I said, I've just formed some really bad habits, and as a result, I'm not getting to create as much as I need to, which causes me to get down on myself and feel depressed, which leads me into not being able to create even when I have time and want to. I was creating fearlessly for a while, and it was wonderful and freeing, but I got off track during the holidays and lost that a little. Time to get back on track with the fearlessness!
I need quiet and solitude to be creative, and I rarely have that anymore, more than a few minutes at a time when I'm forcing myself to do some kind of chore about the house, which has also been let go until I can barely live in it. I just simply don't have the energy or drive anymore. Dealing with too many chronic illnesses. I know it could be a lot worse, and I'm thankful that it's not.
I have been debating on whether to continue a blog, or not, since the new year began. I enjoy doing one, but, since I've been getting almost no comments, and only 3 followers in the past year, I've decided to just post for myself, whatever happens to be on my mind when I have to quiet time to write or share.
I have had my previous two blogs and last year's posts on this one published in book form to keep for my own personal record of thoughts and projects, and hopefully at the end of this year I can afford to put this year's attempts into volume 4.
I used Blog2Print if you're interested in having your own published.
Anyway, I'm about to try to make some changes in my personal life to accommodate my creative life, and your positive thoughts would be appreciated. It is NOT going to be easy! :)
I am registered for Studying Under the Masters with Jeanne Oliver, which starts Tuesday, the 14th, with Jeanne and the study of Matisse. It's a 9-week course with 9 different teachers, each studying and painting 9 different masters of painting, and it sounds wonderful. Looking forward to it, and hoping it will help jump start my creative juices for this year, bad weather or not. You can read all about it by clicking on the link!
The year so far has not been a total blank, well, it has been for weaving and writing, but I have been working on a 9 x 12" mixed media dress painting, inspired by the class I took from Sue Pelletier last year, a little at a time. It's to the finishing touches stage, and I'm waiting on an order from Dick Blick to arrive with a bottle of India Ink.
There has been more work on it since this photo was made, and I don't have the best lighting in the world, but you get the idea. It was originally started as a gift for my best friend's newborn granddaughter, with her name in the blocks down the left side, but it hasn't turned out quite like I planned, so I'm thinking about writing an inspiring word in the blocks instead. We'll see!
I also finished a book on my Kindle that I started before Christmas, "Trapped" by George A. Bernstein. It was a free Kindle book on Amazon, and it kept my interest from the first page until the last. It's about a lady who has a car wreck, winds up totally paralyzed except for her eyes, and discovers that it wasn't an accident. The book is told from her perspective as she figures it all out and ultimately has payback. A good read in my opinion.
This post is not intended to be a pity party, and if it sounds like whining, I apologize. It's merely a written confirmation of the decision to change some things in my life in order to get different results. :)
I'll post more about what changes in another post, and hope not to bore you too much!
Thank you so much, to my 3 followers, and I wish all of you who read my posts the best of everything for the New Year! Thanks for visiting!
Happy Creating! :)
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