Had all of my stitching stuff together by my chair, along with the sketching supplies in the previous post picture. Couldn't wait to get started, after a photo taking session and a bit of cleaning Saturday.
Then things started going downhill around noon, and I took emotional beatings and had hurt feelings from several directions to the point that I wanted to run away and have a hard cry, but I couldn't. My creative muse fled, vowing to never return, and I put my supplies away, thinking I would just donate all of my hobby supplies and my laptop to Goodwill and quit even trying.
Every day is a struggle for me to not give up, especially in light of what all is going on in the world right now, the aging process and chronic illnesses my husband and I are going through, and any number of other things. I am also an introvert and an empath married to an extrovert, and I'm also very sensitive and feel everything deeply, including negative energy. I know many of you are going through similar things, and much worse things, as well, and I really feel for you.
I've been through this thing of wanting to do away with all of my supplies and quit before, so I know it usually passes if I give it a couple of days, feel the feelings, and pray. I slept most of yesterday and watched a lot of TV, including some comedies. NO NEWS. And I prayed. I cling to my faith and would not be able to live if not for God. He is my rock and hasn't failed me yet. Always there for me when nobody else is. And He actually listens to me talk!
Today is Monday. It's a new week, I feel better, and have decided that I need to change some things, and I'm praying for God to help me do that, because I know I can't do it by myself. Even if I want to quit my stitching and sketching/painting, plus my other hobbies, because I think my projects are never good enough. I can't. Something inside won't let me. So I try to forgive and let go, hoping others will do the same for me when I hurt them in some way, and I cling to God, my faith, and my hobbies for inner peace, courage, and strength, and depend on them to get me through whatever hurt and pain that comes my way, and I am more than grateful that the love I get far outweighs the negativity that comes against it.
Now, I think I hear my muse tip-toeing up the hall with a new project to try. Can't wait to see what it is!
Prayers that we all stay safe and well, and that we continue to bring beauty and love into the world however we can. Everyone is hurting right now. Let's try to be kind to one another. 💖
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